what the hell is my problem ?
i feel like i’m in a hole. in a tunnel. i feel like i’m stuck. and i can’t get out. i feel like i’m screaming for help, till my lungs burn, and no one can hear me. what is wrong wtih me? i feel like there’s a hole. a void that can’t be filled. i’ve been crying for no reason, feeling like i don’t matter. feeling like i’m so abandoned. i want to be home. not at school. h.o.m.e. i want to be with my mom. call me immature, call me a loser, i don’t care. but i’m happy at home with my mom. not at school. not here. and i just feel like i need a guy to make me happy too, and that’s almost a sickening thought. because maybe if i was in a relationship, i wouldn’t think of how much pain i was in otherwise. and like why is it that i haven’t been able to wake up without thinking about taking more pills, or cutting? i don’t know what my problem is.
