wow, rant much?
another sick look into my life:
yeah. you guessed it. i guess i’m just gonna ramble some more. but i had a bit of a dawning experience. wtf? well. let’s see. i don’t really know where it came from, but i started to think. and i realized that i like control. i like having that sense of security. and well, when i give that up, and trust someone, the insecurity comes, and i feel uncomfortable. so maybe that’s why i don’t trust a lot of people. and i’m not necessarily proud of it, sure, but i’m not pissed at myself either. i mean, everyone has a way of coping with stuff, right? and sooner or later i’m just going to have to learn to take control only half the time. so yeah. that is probably why i’m single now too. i’ve had offers, but i don’t want to take the risk, i don’t want to go out of my comfort zone.
